Ive been married ten years. I have a beautiful wife that I don't deserve. Together we have a little boy and girl who are the sweetest of the sweetest. This blog is a way for me to talk out loud about my marriage and how it started great, went really bad, got better, but now it seems I'm done for. My wife is not out the door yet, probably only because of the kids. Since she is still living with me I've decided to try like crazy to earn her love back. This may be an impossible love to build again, but I just know I have to try. You see I love my wife. I have made every mistake a guy could make. I took her for granted. I lied to her. I had an addiction to pornography that crushed her and made her feel like she was inadequate. I played stupid video games. I robbed her of the wonderful young marriage before kids that she should have had. I don't deserve her back as you can see. Although I seem terrible
I do have a few good qualities. Not many though. I am a decent dad and try very hard. At times I can be a very good husband. I just need to be that knight in shining armor all the time. So I'm going to get up and go after her. I'm going to love her and try to understand her. First off I have to learn to listen correctly, then I need to learn to respect her. I also need to kill some habits and reduce other time away from family. I want to learn what makes her tick and what makes her happy. I'm going to build a tool set to steal her back. shhhhh. keep this between us. I'll write here daily for my own needs and maybe some other people might find it interesting. So deal the cards, I'm in.
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