A really bad start.

My marriage started like most. No money, lots of goals, and lots of love. I was in the Navy at the time and we did a quick court house wedding. Cheap and regretful. She deserved a nice wedding. She never complained about it. Our honeymoon was a quick weekend and we really did nothing. This started us off on a path of never doing anything. I felt very comfortable never going anywhere or doing anything. My wife however wanted to see things and go places and experience life. So I held her back and took her chance of having fun away. We quickly got into a work rest pattern and life passed on. My wife at first saw me as her Knight and shinning armor and I could do no wrong. To her credit she worked hard cleaning and trying to make our home a home. Very quickly though I ruined our marriage. See I had an addiction to porn. I would stay up late searching porn sites while she slept. I wanted sex all the time and my wife was not a sex all the time girl. Can't blame her there. It wasn't long before she caught me. This hurt her beyond belief. She felt like she could not compare to that porn I looked at. I did not realize it then, but after lieing getting caught, lieing some more and getting caught more I had destroyed her trust in me and ruined our intimate relationship. My wife hung in there with me hoping I would be the man she thought she married. A few years down the road she had an affair. I'm certain today that it was all my fault and that I put her in that situation. I did not show love, attention, and my actions made everything worse. Another guy came a long and showed interest, excitement, and a way to have fun. How could I possibly fix my mess?