Needy and Insecure

Man it just keeps getting worse. Funny thing is when I write the blogs I feel better and tend to squash the negative thoughts. So as you know I have real issues. My wife says I'm needy and Insecure. Man is she right. I'm a little bitch. LQTM. It's simple. Everything is good until its not. Then I act so lame. Instead of being positive and leading through issues, I wine like a child. Some examples are in order.
Have you thought about us lately. Tell me about it. Lol what a dumb effin question. If she was honest she'd say, well your a bitch and I want out. Instead I should have said something like...
Man I'm beat, I'm going to bed. Goodnight. Then when I start thinking in my mind I'd just turn that crap off like a TV and go to sleep. I mean it's so funny. It's natural in our current condition for me to be insecure. I mean she is very unhappy and that makes it impossible for her to show love that would give me confidence. Instead I'm running around thinking in my mind she must be in love with someone else cause she doesn't show me any love. Jesus Christ. It may be that she loves someone else. It may be over. but for gods sake take it like a man. I'm going to finish this post and go to bed. I'm not going to think about this shit anymore. I'm a good looking guy, I'm not overweight. I can be funny. I dress nice. and I'm now working in a successful career. I should have every confidence I can be equal to my woman. So I'm not going to wine. I'm not going ask her any bitch questions about our relationship. If she wants to talk about it I'm sure she'll get to it. I'm gonna go to work. Raise kids and be the best husband I can. besides I'm twice the fucking man she thinks she likes.