A week later

It's been one week since my wife destroyed me. I'm boring, lame, selfish, and all round jerk. One week later she is talking to me, but I can tell you she is simply tolerating a father in the house. I screwed up last night and made a rude comment about her mother. Man that was dumb. Note to self, mother in law really is awesome and we should focus on that. I know she gets all the venting from the wife and knows all my negative attributes. So she pretty much hates me for the way I have treated her daughter. I get it and don't blame her. I don't care. She is an awesome grandmother, and a great friend to her daughter. I'm just going love her to death and if she never likes me again that's okay. I don't need her love. Besides I'm a bit more interested in her daughters love so lets get back to that shall we. So were talking. I'm focusing on listening and not trying to fix everything. I'm trying to take care of my share of the family responsibilities and I'm trying hard to think of others first. My wife has not said a nice thing about me in years. LQTM. I'm not saying I deserve a compliment. But if she focused on one positive thing about me I know I could be so much better with a little love from her. I hugged her this morning and I could just tell it was a burden on her or maybe she was late and just really wanted to leave. But dammit I wanted that hug cause she drives an hour to work and who knows it could be my last. Gonna take her to a concert tonight and I hope she has fun with her boring husband. If she can just look past some of my negative past she might see the man I'm trying to become. Heck maybe she could even help a bit with some kind words, appreciation, and advice.